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"Ministry is powerful when the Spirit is there, not when the pastor is there."

Ahh..

I really did not miss you tumblr.

Its been a while. God, haha.. I see you test me day by day. I see pain every moment. I see love every second. I swim in joy. I drown in guilt. But let me rely on you God. I’m sick of acting church. I’m disgusted by masks to cover up the reality of the pain that can be in our lives. No. I want realness. I want truth. No matter what, I want more of YOU God. Restoration, Renewal, Revival. I want it all in all parts of my life.

God, you teach me things every second. Let me trust in you forever and ever. Proverbs 3:5
Jeremiah 29:11 

Arizona Missions

This trip wasn’t like a life changing trip as in i automatically think right away “im going straight into long term missions!” or “im dropping everything and going to the ends of the earth!”. But, it truly opened my eyes to the truth of so many things. 

3 Things

1. God’s presence is always present. Never can be limited or contained. 

God showed me that when i learned something new everyday there, it was because i only focused on Him more than the distractions.

2. At the root, the same sin is what is destroying mine and the natives community. We’re the same at the heart.

I came in thinking im coming from a rich, healthy life, and they’re coming from poor, different lives, there would be a barrier. But truly, we were the same people.

3. Leadership requires character, and above all, reliance. 

Jason talked to me and said, “You know a true leader is just someone who relies on God so much more. All the apostles were great leaders because they relied on God.” If i am supposed to be a leader, it starts with my heart and my character, relying on God that much more. 

We must go, live to feed the hungry, stand beside the broken. We must go. Stepping forward, keep me from just singing, move me into action. We must go. 

Fill us up and send us out!

"whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies-in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen."-1 Peter 4:11

Wedding

Haha! first wedding of my life. only knew the groom and a few people, but wow, it was pretty good! so happy for you ryan! your wife is so beautiful! 

Future wife, i dont know who you are, but we are gunna have an awkward cute wedding. :)

Pour out

Give me more maturity, more wisdom, more love, more of You. day by day i need you more

I love my small group! :) strength and honor

Time to go big.

Im honestly done praying for:

  • My day to go nice
  • My grades to be what i want them to be
  • My tests to be aced
  • No bad things to happen

WHATS THE POINT. God clearly tells us in Romans 8:28,”And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." So, the point is that God doesn’t want me to worry about those kinds of things that could steal my joy. But rather pray for the world, the nations, for His Kingdom. 

Today i read an article about how China uses ground up children for the ingredients in some medicines. Here’s the link if you want to check it out for yourself,

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2140702/South-Korea-customs-officials-thousands-pills-filled-powdered-human-baby-flesh.html

But instantly after reading this heartbreaking article, i could hear their cries for some reason. It says 13 million abortions occur in China each year due to government laws. I could hear every single cry from each tiny baby, not even understanding whats going on, and my heart shattered. Instantly, i started to pray and cry out for them. 

I believe God is calling us now to pray for the bigger things. Not for our normal routine lives to go according to our preferences, but to start interceding for those who need it and start uplifting nations. No more normal prayers about our day, but time to go BIG. Nations BIG. KINGDOM BIG.

This weekend was one of the best of my life. And God’s love for me is unrelenting and unlimited.

Friday,

Just any collide alone is good, but this one knocked it outta the park. I’ve never experienced the Father so intimately before, and never felt such a feeling of a clean slate. Del’s sermon moved every person in that room. And Jesus broke through every single heart present. Glorious day of renewal and truth.

Saturday, 

Coming off of Friday left me exhausted, but it was DKC softball time! Just a time of church bonding as one and fellowship. Sure, we lost and got a little flustered(including myself…teehee) but it was just a great time of learning too. Had a very deep talk with brother James and man was it holy..haha. The Lord kept telling him “firm foundation” to say unto me. I dont know where God wants to take me, but all i know is that He has got me covered!

Sunday,

Led worship again and was so powerful. Even though im sick and messed up a couple times, the Spirit of God moved. God just kept saying to me “it will only get better from here on”. 

PTL all day, every day!

Words cant describe

Today was just filled with God. Even though it was the first time leading worship, it was an experience i won’t forget. It was worship that was spontaneous, glorifying, wonderful, and just a time of new intimacy. Retreat fasho is here and now and it doesn’t start at some event, or with a crazy worship band, but right here. The year of the Lord’s favor is upon us!